Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Poor Figaro

So at 5:00 am this morning my poor cat Figaro took a turn for the worst and past away. It is believed she had died from kidney disease but we do not know for sure. She didn't suffer which was good. She had been slowing down over the last few weeks and we all had hopes that she might bounce back but the powers that be had other plans for her.

For those who don't know she was my first true pet. I was 12 years old and working for free at the local animal shelter in San Antonio Texas. My father wasn't about having pets so when a litter of kittens came to the shelter while he was on business my brother and I took advantage and adopted Friskey (my bro's cat) and Figaro. She was sweet as can be from day one. She loved people.

I am now 2 weeks from turning 28 and this unfortunate event has taken place. Even though I had to leave her with my parents in VA because she probably couldn't have made the move the relationship I had with her will never be replaced. I've known that cat and she had know me for longer than any friendship I have today. 16 years is along time and I can't even remember how many life changes I've had since 12. Sorry for preaching the bad news I just felt her life should be reconized and remembered even if you didn't know her.


Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Our Furbabies...

I am working from home today and my cats are SO adorable. They are both sitting right next to me, cuddling each other and being so loveable. Both Nittany and the Baby Kitty wont leave me alone, but its just so nice to be loved by such a cute little being. Just had to post a note.

My New Chanel's...

So we went to the store to look at the other Chanel's and tried on EVERY pair...whew, it was exhausting! I ended up walking out with the same pair Chris got me and wore them for about 2 minutes and they were leaving marks in my face. So we went BACK to the store and I got the pair that were my 2nd favorite. All I have to say is I look like Money, I smell like money, even DRESS like MONEY!! They are sooooo awesome. Christmas came early this year...cant wait to see what Hanukkah and Kwanza have in store!

Friday, November 16, 2007

OMG! Chris is the BEST!!

So I called Chris yesterday afternoon, just to say Hello, and he tells me that he is buying my Christmas gift right then. He goes on to ask me if I want it right away, and I say no, and he says YES, so I agree. He gets home at around 5pm and hands me this oblong package, which I thought: JEWELRY!! Nope, even better, a BRAND NEW PAIR OF CHANEL Sunglasses, which I KNOW cost more than any pair of sunglasses should! But I love love love them!!
There is one issue, they dont seem to fit my face properly, so we will be going back to the store in a week or so and see if there is something else I like, which will be hard because I LOVE these soooo much (good job Chris). Anyhoo...Just wanted to give a shout out to a man who KNOWS how to please his woman, in more ways than one!!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Lady bugs cont.

She had forgot to mention that when she said alot what it meant was at least 200 or more. It is insane but in my research I found that they like light colored houses and houses that get alot of the setting sun in southern states. This describes our house to a T since we just got all those trees taken out. But I would rather believe there is so many of them because we need all the extra help we can to get pregnant. If thats the case the more ladybugs the better. For those who don't know Ladybugs don't eat plants or clothes but other small bugs like aphids and mites so they aren't really a pest.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Goodness that's alot of Ladybugs!!!

So our house has become a haven for none other than LADYBUGS. These cute little beetles are ALL over our house. They especially like my office because of the sunlight that it gets. Apparently, they are hibernating! Unbelieveable...they are everywhere...but then again, they are just ladybugs!! However, now they fly around the lights and it was kind of creepy to see how many of them where actually in the house.

Chris looked up how to get rid of them and the site said not to scare them because they will leave little yellow spots on the wall...the yellow is BLOOD that they emit when they are scared and it has an odor to ward of preditors...ew! SOoooo...now we are left with the choice to either leave them alone, or get a shop vaccum and put them back outside...but wouldnt they just come back??

On the flip side, old wives tales tell that Ladybugs are a sign of good luck and fertility! Oddly enough we didnt have ANY ladybugs last year, so maybe this is a good sign...who knows...I will take whatever help we can get!

Friday, November 9, 2007

The sequel to the poem below...

Read the other one first...

Casey's Revenge
by Grantland Rice ©

Published: The Speaker (06-1907)

There were saddened hearts in Mudville for a week or even more;
There were muttered oaths and curses- every fan in town was sore.
"Just think," said one, "how soft it looked with Casey at the bat,
And then to think he'd go and spring a bush league trick like that!"

All his past fame was forgotten- he was now a hopeless "shine."
They called him "Strike-Out Casey," from the mayor down the line;
And as he came to bat each day his bosom heaved a sigh,
While a look of hopeless fury shone in mighty Casey's eye.

He pondered in the days gone by that he had been their king,
That when he strolled up to the plate they made the welkin ring;
But now his nerve had vanished, for when he heard them hoot
He "fanned" or "popped out" daily, like some minor league recruit.

He soon began to sulk and loaf, his batting eye went lame;
No home runs on the score card now were chalked against his name;
The fans without exception gave the manager no peace,
For one and all kept clamoring for Casey's quick release.

The Mudville squad began to slump, the team was in the air;
Their playing went from bad to worse - nobody seemed to care.
"Back to the woods with Casey!" was the cry from Rooters' Row.
"Get some one who can hit the ball, and let that big dub go!"

The lane is long, some one has said, that never turns again,
And Fate, though fickle, often gives another chance to men;
And Casey smiled; his rugged face no longer wore a frown-
The pitcher who had started all the trouble came to town.

All Mudville had assembled - ten thousand fans had come
To see the twirler who had put big Casey on the bum;
And when he stepped into the box, the multitude went wild;
He doffed his cap in proud disdain, but Casey only smiled.

"Play ball!" the umpire's voice rang out, and then the game began.
But in that throng of thousands there was not a single fan
Who thought that Mudville had a chance, and with the setting sun
Their hopes sank low- the rival team was leading "four to one."

The last half of the ninth came round, with no change in the score;
But when the first man up hit safe, the crowd began to roar;
The din increased, the echo of ten thousand shouts was heard
When the pitcher hit the second and gave "four balls" to the third.

Three men on base - nobody out - three runs to tie the game!
A triple meant the highest niche in Mudville's hall of fame;
But here the rally ended and the gloom was deep as night,
When the fourth one "fouled to catcher" and the fifth "flew out to right."

A dismal groan in chorus came; a scowl was on each face
When Casey walked up, bat in hand, and slowly took his place;
His bloodshot eyes in fury gleamed, his teeth were clenched in hate;
He gave his cap a vicious hook and pounded on the plate.

But fame is fleeting as the wind and glory fades away;
There were no wild and woolly cheers, no glad acclaim this day;
They hissed and groaned and hooted as they clamored: "Strike him out!"
But Casey gave no outward sign that he had heard this shout.

The pitcher smiled and cut one loose - across the plate it sped;
Another hiss, another groan. "Strike one!" the umpire said.
Zip! Like a shot the second curve broke just below the knee.
"Strike two!" the umpire roared aloud; but Casey made no plea.

No roasting for the umpire now - his was an easy lot;
But here the pitcher whirled again- was that a rifle shot?
A whack, a crack, and out through the space the leather pellet flew,
A blot against the distant sky, a speck against the blue.

Above the fence in center field in rapid whirling flight
The sphere sailed on - the blot grew dim and then was lost to sight.
Ten thousand hats were thrown in air, ten thousand threw a fit,
But no one ever found the ball that mighty Casey hit.

O, somewhere in this favored land dark clouds may hide the sun,
And somewhere bands no longer play and children have no fun!
And somewhere over blighted lives there hangs a heavy pall,
But Mudville hearts are happy now, for Casey hit the ball.

Love this poem!!

When I was going to Camp Pok-o-MacCready, every year during the talent show, this counselor would recite this poem and every time is was awesome:

Casey at the Bat
by Ernest Lawrence Thayer ©

Published: The Examiner (06-03-1888)

The Outlook wasn't brilliant for the Mudville nine that day:
The score stood four to two, with but one inning more to play.
And then when Cooney died at first, and Barrows did the same,
A sickly silence fell upon the patrons of the game.

A straggling few got up to go in deep despair. The rest
Clung to that hope which springs eternal in the human breast;
They thought, if only Casey could get but a whack at that -
We'd put up even money, now, with Casey at the bat.

But Flynn preceded Casey, as did also Jimmy Blake,
And the former was a lulu and the latter was a cake;
So upon that stricken multitude grim melancholy sat,
For there seemed but little chance of Casey's getting to the bat.

But Flynn let drive a single, to the wonderment of all,
And Blake, the much despis-ed, tore the cover off the ball;
And when the dust had lifted, and the men saw what had occurred,
There was Jimmy safe at second and Flynn a-hugging third.

Then from 5,000 throats and more there rose a lusty yell;
It rumbled through the valley, it rattled in the dell;
It knocked upon the mountain and recoiled upon the flat,
For Casey, mighty Casey, was advancing to the bat.

There was ease in Casey's manner as he stepped into his place;
There was pride in Casey's bearing and a smile on Casey's face.
And when, responding to the cheers, he lightly doffed his hat,
No stranger in the crowd could doubt 'twas Casey at the bat.

Ten thousand eyes were on him as he rubbed his hands with dirt;
Five thousand tongues applauded when he wiped them on his shirt.
Then while the writhing pitcher ground the ball into his hip,
Defiance gleamed in Casey's eye, a sneer curled Casey's lip.

And now the leather-covered sphere came hurtling through the air,
And Casey stood a-watching it in haughty grandeur there.
Close by the sturdy batsman the ball unheeded sped-
"That ain't my style," said Casey. "Strike one," the umpire said.

From the benches, black with people, there went up a muffled roar,
Like the beating of the storm-waves on a stern and distant shore.
"Kill him! Kill the umpire!" shouted someone on the stand;
And its likely they'd a-killed him had not Casey raised his hand.

With a smile of Christian charity great Casey's visage shone;
He stilled the rising tumult; he bade the game go on;
He signaled to the pitcher, and once more the spheroid flew;
But Casey still ignored it, and the umpire said, "Strike two."

"Fraud!" cried the maddened thousands, and echo answered fraud;
But one scornful look from Casey and the audience was awed.
They saw his face grow stern and cold, they saw his muscles strain,
And they knew that Casey wouldn't let that ball go by again.

The sneer is gone from Casey's lip, his teeth are clenched in hate;
He pounds with cruel violence his bat upon the plate.
And now the pitcher holds the ball, and now he lets it go,
And now the air is shattered by the force of Casey's blow.

Oh, somewhere in this favored land the sun is shining bright;
The band is playing somewhere, and somewhere hearts are light,
And somewhere men are laughing, and somewhere children shout;
But there is no joy in Mudville - mighty Casey has struck out.


I hope you enjoyed it!

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Almost 28, but really 14...

So, my husband, my wonderful husband, bought a CUSTOM long board and was sitting on pins and needles until it finally arrived. I must admit, the thing looks pretty cool, but as soon as he took it out, he was threatening to ride the damn thing in my house...and ALL OF A SUDDEN, I sounded like a stereotypical mother: "NOT IN THE HOUSE" was yelled a few times!

So he boards outside for all of 10 minutes and comes back looking winded and tired...must be some good exercise. I told him NOT to ride on it until we get him a helmet (he does not listen). So finally, we go to Ambush Wake Skate and Snow, where I get 2 new pairs of wicked awesome sunglasses and Chris gets a nice helmet and skateboard shoes! Now he is good to go.

Yes, I have made sure his life insurance policy is up to date...God help us!

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Longboard first day

Ok so I go and test this thing out in front of our house. Not bad I tell myself, this thing is smooth. So I get up the nerve to skate down a hill down the street. Boy did I get ahead of myself. I was probably only going about 5 mph but it felt like doing 80 mph in a car through a residential area.

Lessons learned:

1. Just because you read about how to do it on About.com doesn't mean your going to an expert the first time out.

2. When you get older the thought of " holy shit I'm I might fall off this skateboard" runs through your mind much more than "man I look so cool on this thing"

Tuesday, October 30, 2007


I just purchased a longboard. For those who don't know what that is it's basically a long skateboard made for cruising the streets or carving down hills like a snowboard. It came last night and I am excited to test it out. I know Alana must think I am completely nuts to even use this thing. I think I am too but it should be great for exercise. But here's to Alana for excepting the fact she married a nut instead being an ass like most wifes when their husbands want to do something off the wall. We can't all be sane.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

We are going to be FAMOUS!!!

And when I say famous, I mean, all over the internet people...THIS IS HUGE!!! Okay, well now that I totally hyped it up, it's not that big of a deal. But Chris and I are going to be the featured couple on http://www.thenest.com this upcoming week (Monday October 29th). Anyway, I am excited and thought I would pass that along to you!

Let us know what you think of the article!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Best Birthday Ever

Soooo....after a crushing blow with the negative pregnancy result, I wiped my tears away with Chris' help and prepared for a wonderful birthday held at SUTRA Lounge in downtown Atlanta. The day started with getting my hair done with a new style and color...whooo...then got changed and off to Sutra Lounge.

When we got to SUTRA the place was virtually empty, but who cares, right? A few of my friends were there and we started the drinking! By the time I looked up from my drink the place was starting to get crowded. Lucky for us, Neera had gotten us the VIP booth and we were officially part of the elite crowd! Anyway, after a few shots and more drinks and tons of dancing, I was TRASHED (it didnt help that I hadnt drank in about 3 months, so my tolerance was terrible). Anyhoo...we stayed until 2am and Chris drove my drunk ass home.

We were literally 2 MINUTES from our house, when some MORON girl rear-ended our BRAND NEW CAR and EVEN WORSE...SHE WOKE ME UP!!! Anyway, insurance information was exchanged and it'll be taken care of this week. We got home, and I made it upstairs somehow and passed out...only to wake up the next morning to a million Birthday calls (so sweet...and yes, I am that popular!)...By the time I actually rolled out of bed and Chris nursed me back to health, it was dinner time!!!

Chris brought me to a wonderful place called NAN Fine Thai Dining. It was awesome and the service was wonderful. All and all it was a Perfect birthday. Not to mention, Chris got me a brand new KICK ASS Canon Elph camera! Is he the best or what?? Jealous...yes...I know, I would be too!

Plus I got to see my mom and she got me a kitchen gadget called The Magic Bullet...which is really more for Chris than for me, because he does the cooking...but at least I will be eating it...

YEA...I am 27th and feeling awesome!!!

Because I love Chris Powers

I like to express myself with music and here are lyrics to a song I think works perfectly for how I feel about Chris:

How can I tell you that I love you, I love you
But I cant think of right words to say
I long to tell you that Im always thinking of you
Im always thinking of you, but my words
Just blow away, just blow away
It always ends up to one thing, honey
And I cant think of right words to say
Wherever I am girl, Im always walking with you
Im always walking with you, but I look and youre not there
Whoever Im with, Im always, always talking to you
Im always talking to you, and Im sad that
You cant hear, sad that you cant hear
It always ends up to one thing, honey,
When I look and youre not there
I need to know you, need to feel my arms around you
Feel my arms around you, like a sea around a shore
And -- each night and day I pray, in hope
That I might find you, in hope that I might
Find you, because hearts can do no more
It always ends up to one thing honey, still I kneel upon the floor
How can I tell you that I love you, I love you
But I cant think of right words to say
I long to tell you that Im always thinking of you
Im always thinking of you....
It always ends up to one thing honey
And I cant think of right words to say

How Can I Tell You by Cat Stevens

Cover by Cat Power

I know I am corny...but I am embrace my corny-ness and run wild with it!!

Friday, October 12, 2007

No Babies for us...

So I got a call at 11:55am and thought for sure it was good news because she was calling so early...well it was bad news...so no babies for Chris and I this cycle. The good news is, we are strong and so in love and will move forward with our next cycle. I am not sure when that will all start, but it looks like as soon as Aunt Flow arrives I will start Birth Control pills again for 2-3 weeks, then the injections around day 21, soooo if I do my math correctly, we will be doing another egg retrieval around the end of November...so now we may not be able to go to NYC for Thanksgiving, which means I cant attend my fathers funeral...all for a good reason though, right??

Anyway, obviously we are crushed, but we have to look on the bright-side and move forward and hope for the best! Thank you for all of your prayer and well wishes!

Thursday, October 11, 2007


Okay...so I am trying so hard NOT to freak out but OMG OMG OMG...we find out tomorrow....OMG!! I am freaking out and feeling pretty good. I don't want to over-hype myself up....good grief, I feel like I am going to throw up! Thank goodness I have Chris who will be able to calm my nerves and my crazy emotions!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

No frozen embabies for us...

Well..it is a good thing we did a 3 day transfer because none of the other embryo's made it to 5 days!! Oh well...we'll know more in a few days!

Monday, October 1, 2007


Soooo...we got a call on Saturday morning that of course, I missed because my phones were on silent..anyway, the nurse said that Dr. Toledo wanted to do our transfer the next day, Sunday morning at 9:45am. WHOA!! Well cool...right...then I started to freak out, but by mid-day I almost forgot about it as I was too busy going to lunch with Jenny, Veronica and Chris. Going shopping (and leaving empty handed..boo) and finally watching Willow, 300 and MallRats...I love lazy Saturday's...So Sunday morning came and we got ready and headed to the doctor's office.

We got there...and there was NOBODY there! Chris started knocking on doors and nobody answered. We were about to go back downstairs to the main office when we saw a couple leave the office, so we knew SOMEONE was there...right? Not 2 minutes later, an ultrasound tech came and got us. Her name was Portia!

We were brought back to the room, I was told to undress (a custom I am used to)...and she did this awesome ultrasound and Chris got to watch on a flat screen TV! She showed us my uterus and the lining and everything else...then she said "Let's see if the embryo's are up on the screen." There they were...and I started crying! hahaha...2 beautiful 8-cell organisms that will soon turn into 1 or 2 babies...or that's the plan anyway. So Dr. Toledo came in and was super excited about the whole thing, explained the procedure and then started. We watched the flat screen as the cathiter went in, and saw 2 tiny flashes as the embryo's were put in and then as the catheter was taken out. I had to sit with my feet up for only 5 minutes and we were good to go. Of course, Chris was squeezing my hand the whole time and I cried again.

Even more good news: We thought we only had 2 embryo's left to freeze, but we have 3. One that we thought was not going to start growing, started splitting a little late but its growing...so we will know if we have 3 embryos to freeze on Wednesday. Keep those fingers crossed...

Friday, September 28, 2007


So we had our egg retrieval yesterday and that went off without any issues and I was told that they had gotten 14 eggs...WHOA MAMA!! So it was back home to recoup...lots of sleep as that anestesia was NO joke...
I received a call this morning that of the 14 eggs that were retrieved, 7 of them were mature and were fertilized using ICSI (one sperm injected directly into 1 egg). As of today at 1pm, 5 of those are growing...YEA!!!! So we will know soon when out embryo tranfer will be...can't wait and fingers are still crossed!!!

Thursday, September 27, 2007

WHOA..that's a lot of EGGS!!

What a big and exciting morning it was for us. We went into the surgery center at 8am and were asked to fill out a pile of paperwork (mostly just signatures, etc..). At about 8:20am, Chris was called back to give his...well..um..."contribution". At about 8:45am, I was called back to get changed and prepped. I have to tell you, the gown and head-dress I was asked to wear was quite...fashonable...hahhaa...They then brought Chris back to go over post-operative procedure. I was told to drink tons of water, take my pain pills and eat a high protein diet. Anyhoo...at 9:40am (10 mins after our 9:30am appt), I was brought back by my nurse and said good-bye to Chris. That was sad but I was sooo excited.

Surgery began, I felt high as a kite, and then I was out...hahaha. Next thing I knew I was in recovery being told that at last count, I had 13 eggs retrieved!! How cool is that. Then the doctor who did the surgery came back and said there were actually 14!! WHOOOO...anyway, I was only in recovery for 10 mins or so, and then we were headed home.

We are both VERY excited because 14 eggs is awesome. They fertilize them today and will call us tomorrow by 1pm to see how many are growing and will call us every day until the embryo transfer. This transfer will take place either on Sunday or Tuesday. We are hoping for Tuesday, because that would be a 5-day transfer, our 3 year anniversary and a great day to get pregnant!! Not to mention, today is the 27th, Lindsay's birthday, so its good Karma all the way around!! Then our pregnancy test will be on my birthday...GOOD TIMES and FINGERS CROSSED.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

In Case you were wondering about IVF...

In Vitro Fertilization
The Embryology Laboratory at the Strong Fertility Center is a state-of-the-art facility accredited by the NYS Department of Health. We offer a wide variety of laboratory techniques to help patients achieve success with assisted reproduction. These include in vitro fertilization with standard insemination, Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection (ICSI), Assisted Hatching (AHA), embryo cryopreservation, blastocyst culture, TESE and MESA for male factor, and embryo biopsy for pre-implantation genetic diagnosis. Following are step-by-step descriptions of the IVF procedures.

Step 1: Control Ovarian Hyperstimulation (COH)
COH is done using different protocols. The most common one is a long GnRH-Agonist (Lupron) protocol where the secretion of gonadotropin hormones is suppressed in order to prevent premature ovulation. Once optimal suppression is achieved, the next step is the recruitment of multiple follicles by daily injections of gonadotropins. Ultrasound imaging and hormone assessments are used to monitor follicular development. When the lead follicles have reached the appropriate size, the final maturation of eggs is done by HCG administration. Egg retrieval is scheduled 34-36 hours after HCG injection.

(Below scheduled for Thursday September 27, 2007 - Lindsay's Birthday)
Step 2: Egg Retrieval
Egg retrieval is performed in a surgical suite under intravenous sedation. Ovarian follicles are aspirated using a needle guided by trans-vaginal ultrasonography. Follicular fluids are scanned by the embryologist to locate all available eggs. The eggs are placed in a special media and cultured in an incubator until insemination.

Step 3: Fertilization and Embryo Culture
If sperm parameters are normal, approximately 50,000 to 100,000 motile sperm are transferred to the dish containing the eggs. This is called standard insemination.

WE ARE DOING ICSI - The ICSI technique is utilized to fertilize mature eggs if sperm parameters are abnormal. This procedure is performed under a high-powered microscope. The embryologist picks up a single spermatozoa using a fine glass micro needle and injects it directly into the egg cytoplasm. ICSI increases the chance that fertilization will occur if the semen sample has a low sperm count and/or motility, poor morphology or poor progression. If there are no sperm in the ejaculate, sperm may be obtained via a surgical procedure. ICSI is always used to achieve fertilization if the sperm is surgically retrieved.

A normally fertilized egg is called a zygote. Two pronuclei are seen in the center. Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection (ICSI) procedure where a single spermatozoa, as shown by an arrow, is in the process of being injected into a mature egg's cytoplasm.

Fertilization is assessed 16-18 hours after insemination or ICSI. The fertilized eggs are called zygotes and are cultured in a specially formulated culture medium that supports their growth. They will be assessed on the second and third day after retrieval. If sufficient numbers of embryos exhibit good growth and development, they may be selected to grow to the blastocyst stage in a specially designed culture medium. Blastocyst culture has several advantages. Embryos at this stage have a higher potential for implantation, therefore fewer embryos can be transferred on day 5 to reduce the chance of multiple pregnancies. Low numbers of embryos and poor embryo quality reduce the chances for good blastocyst development. A day 3 embryo transfer is recommended for cycles with low numbers and/or poor quality.

Below will take place either Sunday September 30th or Tuesday October 2nd (our 3 yr dating anniversary).
Step 4: Embryo Transfer
Embryos are transferred on day 3 when they are at the cleavage stage (6-8 cells) or on day 5 when they have reached the blastocyst stage. Embryo transfer is a simple procedure that does not require any anesthesia. Embryos are loaded in a soft catheter and are placed in the uterine cavity through the cervix.


Tuesday, September 25, 2007


Soooo....the next phase is FINALLY in sight. I trigger tonight (and then NO more needles in my belly...well not given by me anyway), go in for a physical and history exam with my doctor in the morning, then bright and early on Thursday morning we get these babies (or potential babies rather) removed and fertilized!! From there, for each mature egg, one sperm will be injected into it. Then they call on Friday and tell me how many are maturing, and again on Saturday. If we do a 3 day transfer then it'll be scheduled for Sunday morning, if a 5-day transfer, then Tuesday Morning (our 3 year dating anniversary) they will be transfered. Anyway, I am just so damn excited and hopeful that we will be pregnant by my birthday (October 14th). So keep your fingers crossed and we, of course, will keep you posted!!!

What a Woman

So Alana has been poking her self with needles every day. I know I couldn't do that and even if it was for life and death purposes I would probably ask the Dr. how long would I live if I didn't. A man can never understand a women's want, need, or drive to have children. I know a lot of women haven't gotten to that point but whether your 25 or 45 the urge will come. It will swallow up your life and you will make it your priority. I have seen people go over board with this problem. The biggest effect on the women's life is usually the relationship. The guys wants and needs are thrown to the side in the quest for motherhood. We basically become sperm dispensers in most cases. I would like to thank Alana for not being one of those typical girls. I will say it is a hard especially as a man who will never get a maturnal drive but she has made this process awesome. Trust me I want a child and it is not a one way street but if not for her patience and dealing with my normal crap through these hard times we would have never made it.


Friday, September 21, 2007

Holy Follicles Batman!!!

Soooo...I went to the doc this morning and we had an ultrasound. My normal nurses weren't there, so I had a new one, whose name I have totally forgotten. Anyhoo, she looked at my Ultrasound pictures and results and exclaimed "Holy Cow girl, you have 11 follicles that are already maturing." to which I replied: "Is that good?" She said that they usually see those kinds of results on Cycle Day (CD) 6 or 7 and we are only on CD 4, so I am ahead of the curve, which means I still need to go in every morning to make sure I don't hyper-stimulate and our Egg Retrieval (ER) might be pushed up a few days (rather than CD 10) it might be closer to CD 7 or 8. So thats cool too!!

To be honest I thought we would have MUCH more, because on Monday I was told I have 41 follicles on my right ovary and 39 on the left...so we'll see what's cooking tomorrow morning and every morning there after until our Egg Retrieval!

Chris has been a trooper and was with me during all of this and is actually getting to know what things on the ultrasound are without the tech having to tell us. We are just soooo excited for this cycle and I am very hopeful that it will take and we will get a BFP (Big Freakin' Positive) on (or around) my birthday...pretty cool, huh??

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Poor Poor Xterra


I just wanted to let you know that I should have died this afternoon. The state trooper said it was a miracle that the tracker trailer next to me was able to stop before rolling right over me. I literally hydroplaned into the guard rail on the driver’s side which put me into a spin right across 2 lanes and into the divider between east-bound and west-bound traffic. My wheels where so high on the divider that everyone was surprised I didn’t go right over (which would have meant death due to a bevy of semi’s on the road going 80mph), then I spun around again hit the same divider head on about 20 feet down the road and broke it and then flipped onto my passenger side which left me dangling. Thank goodness for some friendly people who pulled my windshield out so I could get out! And honestly, I am very shaken up but almost fine.

Anyway, life is short...live it to the fullest!!

Monday, September 10, 2007

IVF Schedule...getting really excited

Okay, so I have been on Lupron for 2 weeks (14 full days) and finally was visited by Aunt Flow this morning. Chris and I went to the doctor to have an ultrasound as well as bloodwork. Our ultrasound revealed 29 follicles on the left and 30 follicles on the right...whooo..of course not all of those will get to be full eggs, but how cool is that!!! Anyway, I was told to start Bravelle to mature the eggs tomorrow morning.
That was until I got a call saying the my estrogen level was too high to start the Bravelle...sooooo now we have to Thursday to go back to the doctors office and get more bloodwork and HOPEFULLY start bravelle on Friday. If all goes according to plan, my Egg Retreival will be around the 22nd or 23rd with the Egg Transfer being on the 27th ot 28th. But we wont know for sure for another few days (6 days after taking the bravelle I go in for monitoring everyday)...
Anyway, so thats what's going on with us and the baby making front. The cool part is, we would know if we were successful right around my birthday (October 14th in case you didnt know, so we will be celebrating the night of the 13th)! Pretty neat birthday present, huh!!! I hope I get my wish!
Other than that, everything is good.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Best Husband EVER!!

So last night Chris and I are about to go to bed and or conversation goes something like this:

A: I love you
C: I love you too
A: How much do you love me?
C: More than anything in the world. I realized that I would be okay with dying if I knew I would be reincarnated and be able to find you again!
A: (crying...with tears and everything), that is SO sweet

Chris is seriously the best guy that I know, I guess its a good thing I married him. We have been going through alot lately and when I found out I had to have surgery, here is the email he sent to me:
Subject: How Much I Love You


I love you more than anything else in the world. I can never honestly know what you are going through right now. You are sacrificing you body and emotions for us while I have to sit here helpless. No matter how involved I get I can do nothing to help change the outcomes we've had these past terrible months. All I can hope is that I am providing you with the physical and emotional support you need and deserve. You never have to apologize for what ever reason. Nothing is your fault and the disappointment we share is not in you or myself but of the hope we had in a positive outcome. We are in a situation were we cannot financially and more importantly Emotionally afford to be pessimistic about the result we are trying to obtain. All we can do is hope for the best and shoot for the stars and in the end know that we have each other talk to , to hold, to cry with, vent to and love. I will always be here for you and It makes me proud that you accept that and allow yourself to be so vulnerable with me. Its an honor to except you for all that you are and that even in my lowest moments you may have a discouraging look on your face but the love in your eyes in unmistakable. This is a step in our lives that someone or something is requiring us to muddle through and we will conquer it triumphantly together. This journey will only get harder but we will become stronger and love each other harder with every tribulation. I love you Alana. Even after 3 years and all that we have done together every time I see you after us being apart for any amount of time you still give me the same chills as if it was the first time I saw you after the first night we spent apart.

With all my Love and Infinite Devotion,


Isnt he the best!! Its okay to be a little jealous, I would be if I werent me! Just thought I would share as I am feeling particularly mushy today!

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Ah Life

Well were do I begin. No matter how terrible things seem to be going recently with the fertility crap, Alana and I have pushed through it. Yes as she claims the mood swings have been getting worse everyday she has been taking the Lupron. Yeah for me!!!! But as fast as they come they are gone and she is pleasant for 80% of the day. I look at other couples and when they are in a pinch the weakness in their relationship really shows. As for Alana and I, well, we must be some bad ass mofos because we just keep on going like its just another day. As a man I won't be girly about it but I feel bad for other guys. I would rather shoot myself in the foot than deal with any typical girl out there in the world. Alana is the best





Monday, September 3, 2007

Fat and Frumpy

Why oh why do I feel so fat and frumpy...hmmm..maybe because I have to wake up every morning at 5am and inject myself in the stomach with a drug called Lupron!! This drug, although helping us get pregnant, makes me tired, VERY moody, and FAT! Nice! But all in all its for the greatest blessing this world has to offer, a baby. Anyhoo...I am planning on starting yoga classes at our local YMCA and working from there...hopefully by this time next month, we will have a positive pregnancy test...

Tuesday, August 28, 2007


GOOD GRIEF!! I just got this HUGE box of my medications for this IVF cycle. The good news: Insurance covered all of it and I just had to pay a $110 copay. The bad news: Starting tomorrow morning, I need to start injecting myself in the belly and will become moody (even more so) and bloated with many many eggs. So this box arrives to my house at around 10am this morning and I had to immediatly refridgerate some things. Then I took out my "sharps" container and all of my needles and felt like a very sick person. Then as I was reading my instructions I couldn't remember when I was supposed to take my 1st medication (meaning once a day or twice a day)! Oy Vey!! So I called Chris and he said with NO hesitation: Its twice a day...being that I KNOW Chris, I called my doctor and its only once a day! Good thing I asked, right! So starting tomorrow, I am officially on IVF drugs...wish us luck!

Friday, August 24, 2007

IVF: Here we come

Okay, so we have had a CRAZY week. Starting last Friday morning, my aunt died. Then on Friday afternoon, I find out I have to have surgery because of polyps in my uterus. This freaked me out because I thought it would delay our IVF cycle, plus I had to wait until Monday to schedule this surgery. Saturday we had dinner with some friends of our and found out they were pregnant! Good for them, but add to that, that the food was TERRIBLE and it made for a rough evening. We finally get home and watch a movie, and find that our refrigerator is broken and no longer cooling. Great, now we have to get a new fridge after already spending $25,000 on IVF! So Sunday morning we wake up, go to Home Depot and get a nice new fridge, which, by the way, cannot be delivered until Thursday. NUTS! Then we have a couple we know come over for a BBQ that afternoon. After about 20 minutes of chatting, they let it slip that they are pregnant too...BLAH...the hits just keep on coming. So Sunday comes to a close and Chris is beginning to feel very frustrated about the whole pregnancy thing. I assured him our time would come and we would probably end up with twins!

Monday comes and surgery is scheduled for Thursday at 6am. However, I need to go in for a pre-op on Wednesday. Blah...Pre-Op comes and goes, we sign some papers, whatever, get my blood pressure taken, breath sounds are listened to as well as my heart, we are cleared for surgery. Thursday morning arrives all too quickly and we wait in the waiting room (arrive at 5:30am). We sign more papers and I am brought back to a very cold room. I am greeted by a nice, overly-upbeat nurse who gives me my IV and makes dumb jokes. Chris is finally brought back and he looks VERY nervous, I am too tired to be nervous. The anesthesiologist comes in, makes more dumb jokes and leaves. My doctor comes in, tells us about his car problems, and then makes ANOTHER dumb joke...goodness, lets get this shit over with already!! Then another nurse comes back and takes me to the OR...well not before I give Chris 3 kisses. I am put on a table, Oxygen mask is given to me, I feel tingly and then nothing. All I remember is feeling like I am in bed and sleeping comfortably.

Waking up was much better that I anticipated and I come out almost fully awake and ready to go. Chris said he was only in the waiting room for 20 minutes!! Then we go home and I sleep from 8am until 2pm...nice!! So I am 1 day Post-Op and am feeling pretty good. I cant say that I will be playing paintball on Sunday with Chris, but at least I can go to the movies or something.

We had an "injection teaching" today and man am I confused. However, our meds will be ordered on Monday and delivered on Tuesday for use on Wednesday. We are very excited and are positive this cycle will work.

So anyone who has been though IVF...say a prayer for us and share your experiences!!